As a very young child I survived by using my instincts and imagination. At two and a half my heart
almost stopped as my hair began to slip from between my stepfather’s fingers as my mother begged
him to bring my tiny body back inside of the fourth floor window. I held back screams of fear and
anger about what was happening to me, stuffing them deep inside where no one could hurt me. In my
imagery, there appeared an angel and a white winged unicorn. The angel held me close inside her
wings and the unicorn, Pegasus, allowed me to sit on his back and go for a ride into the universe with
him.
My breathing was so shallow that I became dizzy. I held my breath hoping that all of this was not
really happening to me. I was frozen on the roof top being sexually molested at knife point. I
remember wanting to die. I had to soothe him with my words, promising to stop crying so he would
not kill me. There were splinters of my shattered eight year old emotions and innocence everywhere.
An angel came to comfort me and divert my attention from this meltdown. Her feathers cocooned
around me and I felt so safe.
My throat was clogged with a tube trying to save my life from an OD. I was not able to scream out
all of the rage and anger I felt at being raped, drugged and left for dead. This day at 16 years old
became a major turning point in my life. My creator gave me loving council as I lay motionless in the
ER.
I brought into my adult life scars and emotional injuries as a result of being abused. Low self-esteem,
despair, depression, anger and fear dominated my life for many years. After years of therapy, which
helped me to understand and learn to live and cope with my injuries, emotionally I was still crippled. It
became clear that the power to heal had to come from within. I took classes, listened to tapes, read
books and embraced whatever I thought would help me to feel better. The all-natural process that
ultimately evolved has saved my life, and I believe can help others to reclaim their lives. The process
enhanced my own natural abilities to heal myself through breathing, releasing, meditation, imagery and
visualization, support systems and gratitude. Through relaxation I am able to go on internal journeys of
self discovery. I have been able to revisit those times of trauma, release uncomfortable emotions and
accept more joy into my life through inner journeys. There was joy buried beneath all that pain and
anger. It also became clear that I must change my perspective on things for as I focus so shall it
become. I choose to help others regain more joy in their lives, contributing to a more harmonious
environment. It is also clear to me that there is a great deal of anger and hate around and we, each of
us individually, contribute to its energy. Focusing on what works in our life in gratitude expands the
light. We need each other to heal the earth.
Enjoy “This Too Shall Pass”.
N.Tracy@chat4healing.com - www.chat4healing.com
| This too Shall Pass! A book about AFTER SURVIVAL |
This Too Shall Pass